FRIDAY

fuck. shit. arsehole. fucking shitty arsehole.
i got an exam today and my friends and i did our best to earn good grades. even though we failed :( we still did our best and we were honest. there were some stinky dirtbags in the class who earn good grades. i'm saying this not because i envy them but because they didn't do it honestly. they got a FUCKING KEY ANSWER which made me feel so FUCKING HEAT UP!!!
after that intense moment when i cursed them and cried because of i hated it, i went to a bookstore with my friend, vera. she planned to send a love story and she wanted to seek nice papers that she'd use. we were there for, i don't know 5 centuries i guess because she was so confuse on picking the "one". after that boring silly moment, we went to our house where she asked me to do give her a hand on the letter. i helped her and after that she went home.
and i guess that's it. after she went home i sat on the chair, turned on the computer, and began wrote this shit.

My Family

This is my dad, Andre. He's so funny and like to tell jokes. I like talking about music with him because he got a good taste. But i'm so afraid of him when he got angry.

My mom, Susan. She likes to talk about girly things with me and we like to window shopping together. My friends said she's pretty, and so do i.

Violin, that's my lil sister name. Lots of people said she's cute, i think so too. But sometimes she act very sucks which makes me upset. Just like other younger siblings. But well, she's my sister, i love her.

My Favourite Quotes

"Actually, that sarcasm's not for you. But if the shoe fits, feel free to wear it. Hoe."

"The journey of finding ourselves isn't easy and simple. All the while, why don't we enjoy life and have fun?"

"People who create poetries are cowards, actually. They're to afraid to tell it directly."

"Courage is easy to say, hard to do."

"I hate it when i was so angry to somebody and i walk to them because i wanna slap them. When i finally saw them, i felt pretty bad and cancelled what i wanna do before."

"Do your best to take care of friendship. But if it's your friend who can't cooperate, don't feel bad. It's not your fault."

"Sometimes i felt so lonely even though i'm in the middle of a crowd."

"You know, i got an awful reputation at school. But you people just don't know me. You listen to gossip, not to hidden facts."

"Modern life is rubbish."

Well, that's it now. I'm too tired of typing. Au revoir!

 

My Favourite Movie Synopsis

~Black Swan~

Black Swan is a movie directed by Darren Aronofsky and starred Natalie Portman, Mila Kunis, and Vincent Cassel. 

Nina Sayers (Portman) was a ballerina who had so much passion as her mom . In her ballet place, there was a new ballerina from San Fransisco named Lily (Kunis) who filled the old's ballerina spot. They'd held a ballet show "Swan Lake" with it's director Thomas Leroy (Cassel). He gotta find a new Swan Queen after Beth, the old one, forced to her retirement. 

In the audition, Nina tried to impress Leroy so much with her white swan performance, but with her too-controllable black swan, she failed. Ever since then, Nina was depressed and had an ambition to impress Leroy. She did a practice of black swan dance one night and broke her nail only to tell Leroy that she was done. Unfortunately, when she tried to tell Leroy, he kissed her and made her angry then she bit his lip. Probably, by her charm, Leroy made Nina as the new Swan Queen.

Nina performed her white swan side very very well, but still, her black swan is so awful. Leroy was desperate by that. That made Nina felt very bad. She got this depression that made her often hallucinated.

One day, after Nina being played by Leroy, Lily came as a company. She took Nina to a cafe where Lily gave her a capsule of ecstasy to loose her up a bit. After consumed the ecstasy, they went to a club were Nina went wild and went home to her apartement with Lily. They had sex there.

In the morning, Nina woke up alone and late for rehearsal. At the studio, she saw Lily filled up her place and danced the black swan. Apparently, Leroy interested in Lily because she was so great at dancing the black swan.Even when Nina danced the black swan, Leroy ignored her and looked at Lily.

When she practiced alone, she had another hallucination of Lily and Leroy had sex backstage. She went home right away and her mom said she was sick. Nina locked herself inside her room while her mom tried to open. Nina found something strange on her back and she pulled it out. It was a feather. And then, her mom made her way to got into her daughter's room only to find a bad attitude of Nina which caused her fingers broke when Nina forced to close the door. Nina passed out when she suddenly fell and hit her head. 

When she awoke, her mom told her that she called Leroy and told him Nina was sick. Angrily, Nina left the apartement and insisted on performing when Leroy was about to change Nina with Lily. He gave up and let Nina did her performance.

The first act as a white swan went very well, but in the middle of the show, Nina got distracted of her hallucination which caused her partner, David, who played the prince dropped her when he supposed to lift Nina. Leroy was upset and said it was a fucking disaster.

In Nina's room, Lily was there did her eye shadow and make up as the black swan. Lily told Nina that she worried about the next act and said "How about, i dance the black swan for you?" which caused Nina to got mad and shoved Lily to a mirror. Lily passed out for a secs, then woke up and strangled Nina, said "It's my turn! My turn!" Nina took a piece of glass and stabbed Lily's stomach with a red eyes as a swan and yelled "It's my turn!" which caused Lily's death. Panicked, Nina dragged Lily into the restroom and hid her there. Her eyes turned red and she began to caught her breath.

Nina got into the stage, filled up her part as the black swan. She finally could lose control and did an incredible performance. Her arms started covered up by black feathers and she started to turned into a black swan, completely lost control.

After an incredible amazing performance, Nina went back to her room and covered Lily's blood with a towel. When she did her make up as the white swan, she heard a knock at the door. Lily. Lily complimented Nina's performance and apologized. After she left, Nina confusely looked into the restroom and found nothing. The only thing she found out is that she stabbed herself. With the rest of broken glass inside her tummy. She cried, and then continue her make up.

She danced her last act. And when it comes to the act where she gotta jumped from a cliff replica, her blood spreaded and she jumped dyingly to a matress. The applause exploded outside, people called Nina's name. Leroy and other ballerinas went backstage to bring Nina for her bow, only to found her bloody dying. She faintly whispered "I felt it. Perfect. It was perfect."

 

 

P.S : This synopsis is fully my creation. I did not take it from wikipedia, imdb, or anywhere else. I wrote it down based on my memory.

INTRODUCTION

Okay, i suppose i gotta introduce myself first.
My name is Tifa, full name Farah Tifa Aghnia. A 12 year-old girl. Just an ordinary girl, like the rest in the world. This is not the first blog i ever made. I got previous blogs, they're bullshit, no need to see it. Except thisistifa.blogspot.com, it's a clear blog. My first enjoyable random blog. I forgot the password so i gotta create new blogs. I got 2 blogs, and they're totally nothing but dirtbags. I can assure you that i'm not so sure about taking care this blog well.