Apology

Yeahh well I know what I'm about to type right now will be a violation of my "anti-love drama" principle or anything. Believe me when I'm saying this : this is something I gotta do. I owe him an apology. In this post, I'll be as open as hell. So I'll be thankful if you read this. No don't read it! Shit I'm basically confused am I supposed to be embarrassed or glad if he read this.
It might be too late to apologize considering low long has it been. But yeah I know I've been so cruel back then. I treated you like a worthless thing, like a toy. That was so mean of me. And because of my stupidity and childishness, I didn't give a shit about how you feel back then and focused on my own feelings. Did I ever tell you that once I played Truth-Or-Dare with my pals and when I asked what was my weakness they answered "selfishness"? Guess what, I think they're right. And I think you've been a main victim of my selfishness. Shit shit shit I really am a pain in the ass, right?
For all these months, I thought I could move the fuck on without thinking about you. But one remains from our relationship : my endless guilt. I was like a wicked witch who gave you hope and took it away easily as if I was taking a candy from a little baby. And I was being more selfish and stupid when I asked my friend to got us back together. Thank God you rejected it, because I'm worried if I'd hurt you again.
Now, it backfires. My cruelty to you backfires to myself. I feel guilt. That guilt makes me keep thinking about you, which makes me, believe it or not, still likes you.
My friend told you once the reason I broke you up was your corny interest as  a boy. I WAS SUCH A FUCKING SELFISH IDIOT MOTHERFUCKER. Right now, I want to smash my big head to a trashcan until it splits in two parts (I retract this statement back cause I realize that's stupid and suicidal). Now, I realized the moment I accepted your love was because I like you, physically. I ain't ready to accept you the way you are. I wanted you to be the boy that fits my type. I didn't accept you just the way you are. I told many people clever and nice guys are better than the handsome and cool ones. But back then I became a hypocrite and betrayed my own statement. You were clever and probably the NICEST GODDAMN GUY EVER but I broke you up because of your personal interest.
At this moment, I'm sure you already move on. Well, at least let me say sorry, for returning all your kindness by mean words and underestimating you. Sorry, bro. Seriously, I mean it. I'm sorry.
PS: sorry for the dirty words I know how inappropriate it really is but I can't resist so whaatever man.

QUOTES FROM FAST AND FURIOUS

Have I ever told you I'm an Ultimate Fast Fan? Perhaps you know it already according to my previous post about the #fictionalcharacteriwanttomarry. Well, you can't call yourself a real fan if you can't catch up some memorable quotes from the movies. (Btw, this is purely from my limited memories of the movies, no googling).

Salud, mi familia. -Dominic Toretto, Fast Five

You don't turn your back on family, even if they do. -Dominic Toretto, Furious Six

 Even cops in Hollywood are Hollywood. -Brian O'Connor, The Fast and The Furious

It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile, winning's winning. -Dominic Toretto, The Fast and The Furious

You don't realize how much you appreciate something until somebody takes it away. -Brian O'Connor, Furious Six

Life's simple. You make choices and you don't look back. -Han Seoul-Ah, The Fast and The Furious : Tokyo Drift

 You don't send a man to do a woman's job. -Gisele Yashar, Fast Five

I got a high metabolism -Roman Pearce, 2 Fast 2 Furious (after being asked by Brian since when did he eat so much)

Like everything else just disappears. -Neela, The Fast and The Furious : Tokyo Drift (when Sean talked about his feelings during his first race winning.

 I guess those are the only quotes I remembered. If there are missing memorable quotes, I'll make sure I watch the movies again! (I've been absent from routinely watching the movies due to the fact of my final exam this week.

#fictionalcharacteriwanttomarry

Brian O'Connor, not the deceased Paul Walker but the character he played on Fast and Furious franchise.
So the very first time I watched the Fast and Furious movie was in 2009, when my parents watched the 4th Fast and Furious. It was all about cars and it ain't really what I interested in. But when my dad bought the 5th one, I think it was AWESOME. So I began to like the movie, but I had no particular interests in the characters. When my dad bought the 6th one, I only watched the airplane action scene and yeahh it was good but I still had no particular likings on the character. But when my dad bought all the movies from the franchise, I watched every single one of them and it was the BEST franchise I ever seen. So yeah I began to be in love with the franchise and my favorite character, as y'all can guess, Brian O'Connor.
Now let's use girls' logic here. The first and main reason why I want to marry Brian is because, he's not only handsome, but he's so very amazingly incredibly freaking HOT. I personally think he's even hotter than Dom Toretto because Brian's muscular too but he's body isn't that "large" you know. And he has a pair of bright beautiful blue eyes which will melt many girls' heart when he gives them a stare--especially my heart. But my favorite part of his facial features is his mouth. Because he looks super goddamn cute and charming whenever he gives his signature smile (see 2Fast 2Furious, in that film, he smiles A LOT).
Now about his traits. He's really loyal to his friends, especially if he thinks you're a family (like how loyal he is to Dom) and willing to give up his own pride if he realizes you deserves more respect (like how he let Dom go in The Fast and The Furious because he respected him more than he did to himself). He's very protective and caring towards someone who he really loves (especially Mia Toretto) and willing to take a bullet for them. He has this intelligence and good contemplation for an ex-FBI who has turned into an outlaw along with Dom and Mia.
Most memorable quotes :

You don't realize how much you appreciate something until somebody takes it away -Brian O'Connor, Furious 6

RIP PAUL WALKER (12th SEPTEMBER 1973 - 30th NOVEMBER 2013)

If one day the speed kills me, don't cry 'cause I was smiling